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So they did indeed diagnosis me with diabetes this week, didnt really hit me how serious that is til today.  This really brings the focus of getting back to a healthy weight very important to me.  I have been pretty good, and with the medication it seems my blood sugar is ok so far.  I keep getting the urges to go get a bag a sour patch kids or a “really like it” size ice cream from Cold Stone.  Boyfriend was nice and brought me home some sugar free candy, I have been sick for a week so Im still trying to figure out what works for me, i.e. when i should eat and exercise.  I tried working out on Thursday but ended up feeling really weak and dizy, I think my body just needs some more time for the beds.  I have not weighed myself this week, so going to do so today and try to work on the water!!

So I have been sick since last week, out of work, possibly going to lose my job.  They dont know what is wrong with me, they tell me I probably have type two diabetes, and then they tell me my blood sugar is only really high because I am sick.  What is really going on, this will be five days I have missed of work, and Im still so exhausted. Grrr, and even though I have been sick, I dont think I have lost any. Oh well

Well I am starting out again, I have gained so much weight it is really starting to scare me.  I am scared for my health and for the career I am going into to.  I have to be in pretty decent shape for my job, otherwise I will get run down quick.  I am also starting to go to hypnosis again, Positive changes, its alot of money but proven to work.  My mom did it and lost 70 pounds almost easily.  I just have to listen to my tapes at least twice a day.  They help me sleep better to, and its a great destresser.  My sister and I seem to be competing for weight-loss, though not in the healthy positive way.  My mom tells me yesterday, “oh ya Mel is down under 200, when she used to weight more than me just a couple of months ago”.  Makes me want to starve myself, but then no I go out to dinner and binge.  Ugh, so I am trying to feel positive about this new beginning.  I really think I need to find a buddy that is in the same boat as I am.  I think friends with the same goal in mind, make achieving that goal so much easier. 

Day One