lilphatkat

Well I am starting out again, I have gained so much weight it is really starting to scare me.  I am scared for my health and for the career I am going into to.  I have to be in pretty decent shape for my job, otherwise I will get run down quick.  I am also starting to go to hypnosis again, Positive changes, its alot of money but proven to work.  My mom did it and lost 70 pounds almost easily.  I just have to listen to my tapes at least twice a day.  They help me sleep better to, and its a great destresser.  My sister and I seem to be competing for weight-loss, though not in the healthy positive way.  My mom tells me yesterday, “oh ya Mel is down under 200, when she used to weight more than me just a couple of months ago”.  Makes me want to starve myself, but then no I go out to dinner and binge.  Ugh, so I am trying to feel positive about this new beginning.  I really think I need to find a buddy that is in the same boat as I am.  I think friends with the same goal in mind, make achieving that goal so much easier. 

Day One